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Anxiety

This past December my medication was switched. The Zyprexa was causing more weight gain then I was comfortable with so I was switched to Geodon. Now the Geodon works great for my paranoia and intrusive thoughts but has been doing jack shit for my anxiety.

For the past few weeks I have been suffering from near debilitating anxiety attacks. What should have been a leisurely drive to go see a much anticipated movie caused me to have thoughts that were gonna crash and die. I can barely sustain my attention long enough to read, which is a stress reduction past time of mine. I have had to leave work early and also call off because my anxiety has been that crushing.


I have an appointment scheduled for the 18th to see if my medicine needs switched again, or should we add something to the mixture. Wish me luck.

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